I have asked other angels in Heaven if their intervention requests were ever approved, and all had the same experience as me. Of course, I have only asked an extremely small proportion of the angels. We are Watchers not Guardians, it seems. I must admit that the aftermath of my non-interventions never went too badly; my charge survived, he made mistakes but learned from them, troubled times built up his character, etc.
It did get me thinking about God's Plan: is he saving up all the interventions for the End? When his world is destroyed and a new world takes its place? Are we all just keeping track of our charges, and then when the day comes the Guardians of the Chosen will be told to 'PROTECT YOUR HUMAN FROM THE EVIL ONES'? I don't know.
I wish I could have spoken to the Guardian of Michael's Mother. In the aftermath of her husband's - Michael's father's - death, she turned to alcohol for consolation. She is still an alcoholic twenty years later, still a social recluse. Her house is a museum to her former life: family photos adorn most walls, and the house has not been redecorated since she became a widow. I would like to know whether her angel - I assume she has one - ever put in an request to help her off the alcohol, somehow. I know Michael finds it difficult to ring or visit her nowadays: it gets harder every year. Being a social recluse, she seems to have forgotten how to have actual conversations: she talks at people, and then interrupts them when they try to speak. Many years ago, her friends would regularly invite her out, but she would always decline. Eventually they stopped inviting, so she has no social life nowadays.
When she was going through the anger stage of grief she would start shouting at him for no reason, and nothing he could say would stop her drunken yelling. The feeling of powerlessness against yelling stuck with Michael for years: if ever anyone started shouting he would freeze up and want to run away.
Before he moved out, Michael would often try to convince his mum to stop drinking. Sometimes she would lie, say that she wasn't drinking, and hide the bottles in the garage. Sometimes Michael would pour the wine away, and then she would shout at him and make false comparisons: his pouring away her wine would be like someone throwing away his toys (he was about 7 years old at this time). In his mid-teens he snapped and shouted at her a few times, called her pathetic. She was silent and walked away, as if aware that he spoke truth, but she did not reform.
I wish I could at least know whether her Guardian tried to intervene, to help her reform.
What makes this so tragic is the duration. When her husband died, they had been together for 17 years. It is now nearly 20 years since she became a widow, and she is still a grieving alcoholic social recluse. Obviously, we wouldn't expect someone to get over something like that entirely - a surprise bereavement will have a permanent impact on someone's character - but we can expect some progress. She has now been grieving for longer than she was married, longer than she was with her husband.
Why couldn't her Guardian have intervened to help her? I put in requests on Michael's behalf - her alcoholism was having very obvious negatives effects on him - but they were all declined. Why could no one help?
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